Life

23rd Mar 2010, by kjsteege, filed in Life
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It is incredible how quickly new habits can form.  I am addicted to television.   I absolutely love watching reality shows about other people getting organized, loosing weight, raising children, traveling to interesting places, cooking beautiful meals.   I am just now realizing how much of a waste it all is.

My husband and I have purchased our first home.  We have spent this past month moving our stuff in and trying to get organized.  What an overwhelming experience.  I have moved 13 times in my life and this experience was completely different.  There is something so exciting and daunting about having the freedom to do whatever we want to this house.  This has never been an option.  I want to make this house our home and our sanctuary.  I am proud of this purchase and what an accomplishment it is.  We had been planning and saving for over 3 years.  I can hardly believe that this is all ours.

I find that at the end or my work day, instead of wanting to work on our beautiful home, all I feel like doing is eating a gigantic meal and sitting on the couch and watching one of the above described reality shows.  Then begins a relentless battle inside my mind.   My body feels exhausted and my back sore from a day of sewing.   My mind feels spent from fighting with the prom dress that I am trying to perfect and I want to give into the voice that so strongly encourages me to continue to sit on the couch and be a bum.   Then my reason and logic creep up and remind me that I have a wedding to participate in merely four months.  I am beyond disgusted with my current figure.  This is never a weight that I could have ever imagined reaching.  Beyond that I have reached my largest clothing size of my life.  The side of me that knows better tells me to get off of the couch and do some exercise.  This side has not won this debate in many months now.

To add to the lack of exercise, I have regularly found myself indulging in horrible eating habits.  I could take the easy argument and blame my husband for his picky food rules which usually leads us to eat things that generally would be found on a five year old’s dream food list, but as I said that is an easy excuse.  I have control over the situation I just don’t take that control.  The truth is, and you can say what you want, we both need to eat better.  He is also the largest he has ever been in his life.  This is not the way we want to be.  In addition to these foods being horrible for us  I am completely bored with the dishes that we always revert to.  There is such a gigantic library of exciting and wonderfully healthy meals out there.  I really want to explore.

The questions then becomes, “How do you change your life?”  Perhaps putting it this way seems a bit dramatic but I feel like I do need to change my life.  I want to make this house feel like it is a representation of our personalities.  I want to reduce the clutter and excessive collections I have.  I want to develop a regular exercise routine.  I want to cook interesting and challenging meals that will also be good for us.  I want to discover a new version of myself.

It has been a very long time since I have published on here and since somewhat recently becoming an avid reader of a certain dear friend’s blog and another certain cousin’s blog I have decided to revive DomesticKate for all that she can be.  If not for starters just a forum for self motivation and accountability.  Wish me luck!

28th Jan 2009, by kjsteege, filed in Life
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My husband told me today that he heard news of a family in California that were hit particularly hard by the economic downturn.  Both the husband and wife lost their jobs and were feeling completely distraught.  The husband felt there was no hope left.  He took the lives of their five children, his wife’s life and his own.  This story obviously makes me ill, but it also inspires a myriad of other feelings.  For example, frustration.  Times are hard yes, no one would disagree with this, however, all is not lost.  It is so important to remember, in these cold days, all that we do have.  A few of my own treasures include a loving, supportive family, an amazing husband, and the most incredible friends a person could ask for.  In hearing the news of this man and his tragic story, I can’t help but wonder, did this family have absolutely no one to lean on?  I find this hard to believe.  If nothing else they had each other.  There are always options.  In stead of focusing on all that is sad in the world, we should pull together and find the sunshine.  There are endless moments in every day that are beautiful, hilarious, wonderful, and hopeful.  Babies at the grocery store, learning and absorbing the world around them.  A conversation with someone you love.  Watching your pet sleep so peacefully removed from the stress of our reality.  Listening to a beautiful song.  Baking something delicious, or enjoying a delightful coffee and people watching.  Borrowing a book from the library.  Hugging.  Telling someone how much they mean to you.  We have to pull together to get through this winter.  Do not get discouraged.  All is not lost.

Here is the story I was referring to.


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